Some days are better then others to get through. You never know what will trigger a bad day or when it will come along. It is important to have strong people to be there, and faith in the Lord to get you through.
Over the last week, I have needed that strength to lean on. As I finished my last client yesterday, my co-worker told me that she admired the strength I had to stay positive and know my self-worth. It was funny to me that she sees that, because I do not feel that way about myself.
After surviving six years of abuse and sexual assault, I don' talways feel like being positive. Many days I have to push back the fear I still live with every day and force myself to smile. I find my strength in empowering myself through taking back my identity. Whether it is adding a touch of pink to my hair, or putting on colorful makeup, I take back one negative memory at a time.
The first of seven counselors told me I would have to find a new normal to my life, because I could never go back to my life as I knew it. Almost eighteen months later, I think I am finding what normal is. For me, part of having Fearless Faith is sharing my story, not because I am proud of what happened or to draw sympathy, rather, to empower women to live a new normal that they never knew they could. God does not intend for us to live in fear, Ephesians 6:10-17
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. God provides for us a shield to protect us and empower us with the truth that we no longer need to live ing fear! (emphasis mine) 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
Over the last week, I have needed that strength to lean on. As I finished my last client yesterday, my co-worker told me that she admired the strength I had to stay positive and know my self-worth. It was funny to me that she sees that, because I do not feel that way about myself.
After surviving six years of abuse and sexual assault, I don' talways feel like being positive. Many days I have to push back the fear I still live with every day and force myself to smile. I find my strength in empowering myself through taking back my identity. Whether it is adding a touch of pink to my hair, or putting on colorful makeup, I take back one negative memory at a time.
The first of seven counselors told me I would have to find a new normal to my life, because I could never go back to my life as I knew it. Almost eighteen months later, I think I am finding what normal is. For me, part of having Fearless Faith is sharing my story, not because I am proud of what happened or to draw sympathy, rather, to empower women to live a new normal that they never knew they could. God does not intend for us to live in fear, Ephesians 6:10-17
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. God provides for us a shield to protect us and empower us with the truth that we no longer need to live ing fear! (emphasis mine) 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
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